Just as I am....

We all have times when we feel overwhelmed and out of control. When our situations feel to big for us to handle. In these times it is so easy to turn to what we know feels good and what we know will take us out of our situation. Many times, whatever it is we have always used to cope is no good for us. I know for me the first thing I tend to do is start thinking that I need to get a job and move out of my parents house. I know that I am called to to be a SAHM and that I am called to homeschool my daughter but there are many days that the devil whispers in my ear that I shouldn't be living at home. He will tell me, "You are a single mom. You should be working and taking care of you daughter alone." How crazy is that?!? ALONE! I never have to do anything alone. God did not create us that way. We are not to work alone. We are made for relationships and the greatest of all these relationships is the one we have with Jesus. There is never a time when we are alone. God showed me a great example of this this morning. Hagar felt alone when Sarah had her sent away. Hagar had absolutely no control of her life. First she was used by Sarah to provide her with a baby. Then, when she got pregnant Sarah got mad. It didn't seem fair how her life was going but God saw her pain. God told her to go back to her mistress (Genesis 16:1-15, Life Recovery Bible pg. 25). God does not want us to run from our problems. We have to face them head on AND we have to know that we are NOT alone! God is always with us!

When reading Jesus Calling by Sarah Young this morning I was lead to read Psalm 119: 105-112:

Your word is a lamp to guide my feet
and a light for my path.
I've promised it once, and I'll promise it
again:
I will obey your righteous regulations.
I have suffered much, O LORD;
restore my life again as you promised.
Lord, accept my offering of praise,
and teach me your regulations.
My life constantly hangs in the balance,
but I will not stop obeying your
instructions.
The wicked have set their traps for me,
but I will not run from your
commandments.
Your laws are my treasure;
they are my heart's delight.
I am determined to keep your decrees
to the very end.

That is quite a prayer and one that I will use in the coming days. The Psalmist says, "Restore my life again as you promised." God has promised to restore our life. That is amazing. it doesn't matter where we come from or where we are going. It doesn't matter how rich or poor, big or small, significant or insignificant we are or feel. God will restore our lives! Once I really realized this in my own life my desires slowly lined up with those of God's. What an amazing feeling it is! And when this happens there is a desire to want to make God smile. To want to please God in all we do. This is where I want my number one priority! Even when I think that everything around me is falling apart and I begin to believe what I do doesn't matter that is when I must remember that I am doing what I do unto the Lord and because of that it means everything. Just as the Psalmist says, "Your laws are my treasure; they are my heart's delight." It is great to be a princess! It is great to have a Father so absolutely amazing! I thank God for being all He is and loving me just as I am.

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